I don’t know what to do about anything in my life right now. I’m so confused about everything. Everything seems to be going wrong right now. I don’t know what to do about my dad, my mom, school and everything else.
I feel miserable all the time. I can have a perfect day at school, seminary and baby-sitting and then I come home and it’s all gone. No matter what I do, I just feel horrible here. When I am home I start doubting everything.
I’m tired of putting up with everything I have always put up with. Ignoring my dad is only making it worse. I remember my sister going through these same things 2 years ago. My Bishop told me that I should get a job at night so that I won’t be home when things usually get bad. I actually am going to be working at night starting in June, but it only makes my dad madder when I’m not home at night. His drinking has only gotten worst in the past few years. My mom is addicted to pain pills and is kind of crazy. I can’t stand to be around either of my parents.
I have never felt so alone in my life. I just ignore my parents all the time and my sister is never home anymore. My best friend now lives in a different state. I don’t have anyone to talk to and I’m starting to just keep everything to myself. It has only made things worst.
I don’t know what to do. I don’t know why I feel like this when I am home, I can’t explain it. I don’t feel like that in the morning or when I’m not home, just at night. What can I do to make these feelings and doubts go away. I don’t know what to do.
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