7/20/09

Yes, it has been awhile. Even though I don't really have a job or children my life seems so hectic! I watch my friends little boy a few days a week and in my free time I just can't seem to accomplish everything I need to. I am STILL working on getting all the steps up. It is a lot bigger job then I thought it would be! I am so putting up my book! I've been working on it since I was 18 as I way to get my voice out. I have finished writing it, but just haven't got up the guts to send it in and see if I could get it published! I'm posting it on another blog.

7/11/09

I have a few too many things going on right now. I don't think life is ever going to slow down!

For the 4th of July we went down to my parents house. It times it is still hard sleeping in THAT room. After all these years of counseling, I've learned how to push past it. THAT room, the one we sleep in, I grew up in it... I woke up to my sister screaming that my mom had died, thinking it was a nightmare in there... I watched Jack in there. Too many things happened in THAT room. It was my room when I finally moved out. I shouldn't of been surprised that the same day I moved out they immediately switched it to their dream guest room!

I'm not sure what triggered it, but our first night visiting I was hit with a lot of guilt for something I have done in the past. I am anxious and very nervous to talk to my bishop about it. I just want it to be over and done with!