I feel like the depression is sneaking up on me again. Today I slept for almost 12 hours! Yikes. And I woke up pissed off at the world.
Brad posted a picture of the vinyl we put on his brother's Camaro. A friends of ours commented asking if it was our new car. In my head I wanted to comment "Yeah. We have a broken down truck with no engine because we can't afford one. Brad just had to take all the money out of my savings jar for our anniversary to buy a new battery for our one functioning car so yeah it makes perfect sense that we would be able to afford a freakin 2011 CAMARO!!!!" Instead I just commented and said "It's his brothers".
I go into my office and get to work. People want to buy products, which should make me happy, right? Everyone wants to know where to pick up. Since we closed our store and are now working from home I won't post my home address because I don't want people just showing up at my house. So I comment "Pick up is at our house by appointment only. Just text me at xxx-xxxx". What's the next comment "Where can I pick one up at?" I wanted to scream...
Oh and the #1 question I get asked: How much for this product?
Me- Our prices are based on size, so how big do you want it to be?
Them- I don't know. So how much?
I have learned over the years to just pick a random size and give them that estimate...
Another common occurrence:
Customer: I want it to look exactly like this
I replicate it exactly!
Customer: I don't like it!
Or... after a job is cut and done the customer will cancel the order!!!
And these are all things that have happened within the past few days!!!
Seriously... Can more things go wrong today? Facebook just deleted my business account! :(
I hate dumb questions for people.
Question #1) I want to purchase this item. It is the vinyl and the wood or wood only.
Me) It's vinyl only
Customer) Do you have wood cut for this product you will sell me?
Um, seriously?
Tuesday, February 24, 2015
Sunday, February 22, 2015
2/22/15
I've actually been sleeping all night, every night lately! Man does it feel good to actually sleep! Also, I've been off Prozac for almost a month and normally I hit rock bottom once my anti-depressant gets out of my body, which has not happened this time. I've found that I'm a little less patient and more snippy/ moody, but for the most part feeling good!
I've been trying to figure out if there is a reason for my insomnia. I've cut out almost all caffeine. I take 3 vitamins everyday- B 12, Vitamin D and a Multi-vitamin.
I've wondered if the depression steamed from something deeper, like a thyroid problem. Now that we have health insurance, well once it kicks in, I'm planning on going to my doctor and talking about this curiosity. Also, I've haven't seen him while I've gone off and on and off again my meds! My mother-in-law, who is a nurse, has been worried because I've been going off and on without my doctors knowledge.
My new alarm system is working perfectly! I can't remember if I posted before or not, but my alarm is on my phone and is easy to snooze. I knew going from working full-time at the off to having my own schedule at home I would struggle. So 1 week before the switch I started a new routine. My alarm is still on my phone, but instead of being on my nightstand, it is across the room! So I have to get up to snooze it. It is working beautifully!!!! I have to start work by 10, but set my alarm for 8. Sunday I get to sleep in until 9.
I've been trying to figure out if there is a reason for my insomnia. I've cut out almost all caffeine. I take 3 vitamins everyday- B 12, Vitamin D and a Multi-vitamin.
I've wondered if the depression steamed from something deeper, like a thyroid problem. Now that we have health insurance, well once it kicks in, I'm planning on going to my doctor and talking about this curiosity. Also, I've haven't seen him while I've gone off and on and off again my meds! My mother-in-law, who is a nurse, has been worried because I've been going off and on without my doctors knowledge.
My new alarm system is working perfectly! I can't remember if I posted before or not, but my alarm is on my phone and is easy to snooze. I knew going from working full-time at the off to having my own schedule at home I would struggle. So 1 week before the switch I started a new routine. My alarm is still on my phone, but instead of being on my nightstand, it is across the room! So I have to get up to snooze it. It is working beautifully!!!! I have to start work by 10, but set my alarm for 8. Sunday I get to sleep in until 9.
Wednesday, February 18, 2015
2/18/15
It's 1 am and what am I doing? Blogging! What do I wish I was doing? SLEEPING! I swear lately my body will only sleep every other night! Seriously body? This girl need sleep! It does not help that I think I'm coming down with a cold. Last night I got such great sleep! I was out sometime between 11 and 1, I can't remember. Then I was partially awake before my alarm went off at 8. I got right up and got started on my day. It felt amazing. It was a crazy busy day and I don't think tomorrow will be much better. Only 3 more days of working at the store then I get to work from home again! I was exhausted and ready for bed by 11. I finished the one job that needed to get done and went to bed... 2 hours later I'm STILL awake! Come one!
Oddly enough, being sleep deprived makes me happier! I remember as newlyweds my poor husband thought I was crazy! I would wake him up in the morning when I hadn't slept and would be so happy and full of energy.
The first time I went on Prozac (11 months ago) It helped my sleep 100%. It was amazing! The past 9 months have been rough; so many ups and downs and on this medication then having to go off it due to health problems. Last night I couldn't help but think about something-
9 months ago I felt as if I was dying. If things had kept up with my crazy menstrual cycles I probably would have. I told my doctor that I wanted a hysterectomy (I've been wanting one for years, but every OBGYN I have asked has refused to do it). My wonderful Doctor P agreed that it would be best for me if I had one! I was over the moon excited! However... he wanted me to have health insurance before he would refer me to an OBGYN. I thought, okay, that will be easy, as soon as Brad's open enrollment comes around we'll sign up! About 4 months go by and he gets all the info. It wasn't that hard to look at the simple cost of it and say No Way! When you barely make ends meet $300 a MONTH is out of the question. A few months later my Mother-in-Law told me about Arches, that it was affordable insurance. I looked into it and it was going to be around $500 a month! Are you kidding me? 1 month ago the plan was keep doing what I'm doing- Go on Prozac, hold out until I couldn't take the bleeding anymore, go off Prozac, get the bleeding to stop, depression hit rock bottom so go back on Prozac and start they cycle all over again! Physically and emotionally it is SO not been good for me. I mean, while I'm on Prozac I'm good but I know sometime down the road I will have to go off, if I don't I could bleed to death (yes, seriously, I bleed that badly!)
Then 1 month ago Brad got a phone call from a former co-worker offering him a new job. There was no reason for us to say no to it, other then the schedule conflicted with our store. After debating we decided it would be best for our family to close the store and him to take the job and I go back to working from home. I've been really excited about this change. He started his new job 3 (work) days ago. Before he started we discussed health insurance and agreed if it was reasonable we should sign up. His co-worker told him it cost lest and covered more then their former employment did. Still, I have zero expectations. I had heard "affordable" before and I don't consider $400 a month very affordable. Get this... $100 a month! or was it like $88? Either way, it was amazing! The second that coverage kicks in I'm getting me a hysterectomy!!!!
Anyways, my point is, that last night as I look at health insurance papers I thought, What if... what if one of the reason my husband got this new job because we (I) need the health insurance?
Oddly enough, being sleep deprived makes me happier! I remember as newlyweds my poor husband thought I was crazy! I would wake him up in the morning when I hadn't slept and would be so happy and full of energy.
The first time I went on Prozac (11 months ago) It helped my sleep 100%. It was amazing! The past 9 months have been rough; so many ups and downs and on this medication then having to go off it due to health problems. Last night I couldn't help but think about something-
9 months ago I felt as if I was dying. If things had kept up with my crazy menstrual cycles I probably would have. I told my doctor that I wanted a hysterectomy (I've been wanting one for years, but every OBGYN I have asked has refused to do it). My wonderful Doctor P agreed that it would be best for me if I had one! I was over the moon excited! However... he wanted me to have health insurance before he would refer me to an OBGYN. I thought, okay, that will be easy, as soon as Brad's open enrollment comes around we'll sign up! About 4 months go by and he gets all the info. It wasn't that hard to look at the simple cost of it and say No Way! When you barely make ends meet $300 a MONTH is out of the question. A few months later my Mother-in-Law told me about Arches, that it was affordable insurance. I looked into it and it was going to be around $500 a month! Are you kidding me? 1 month ago the plan was keep doing what I'm doing- Go on Prozac, hold out until I couldn't take the bleeding anymore, go off Prozac, get the bleeding to stop, depression hit rock bottom so go back on Prozac and start they cycle all over again! Physically and emotionally it is SO not been good for me. I mean, while I'm on Prozac I'm good but I know sometime down the road I will have to go off, if I don't I could bleed to death (yes, seriously, I bleed that badly!)
Then 1 month ago Brad got a phone call from a former co-worker offering him a new job. There was no reason for us to say no to it, other then the schedule conflicted with our store. After debating we decided it would be best for our family to close the store and him to take the job and I go back to working from home. I've been really excited about this change. He started his new job 3 (work) days ago. Before he started we discussed health insurance and agreed if it was reasonable we should sign up. His co-worker told him it cost lest and covered more then their former employment did. Still, I have zero expectations. I had heard "affordable" before and I don't consider $400 a month very affordable. Get this... $100 a month! or was it like $88? Either way, it was amazing! The second that coverage kicks in I'm getting me a hysterectomy!!!!
Anyways, my point is, that last night as I look at health insurance papers I thought, What if... what if one of the reason my husband got this new job because we (I) need the health insurance?
Tuesday, February 17, 2015
2/17/15
Our family has been going through some changes. My husband got a new job and with that my job is going from full-time at the office to (hopefully) part-time from home! I could not be more excited about this. However, I do have 1 fear about this- my depression! Before I had kids I literally did nothing all day. I would sleep until 12 or even 2 or 3 and then just watch TV. When I had little ones (we did Foster Care so sometimes I would have a little one for a few months and then go back to not) it gave me a reason to get up in the mornings, more like forced me to get up in the morning. 5 years ago we got our daughter, thus I've been forced to get up with her and then her brother in the mornings. Over the past 2 years that I've been working my kids have become so independent that they don't need me in the mornings. Heck, as much as I tell them to come wake me up when they get up, they don't! But still, I've had my job and have been forced to get up and go to work. I've been worried that without my job forcing me to get up and my self-reliant kids wanting to do their own thing I would end up sleeping all day and sinking back into that deep depression.
The good thing is, I'm finally in a place where I can acknowledge the depression and see the sleeping as a problem. If anyone else is like me, it doesn't matter how much your alarm goes off in the morning, or even if people text you, you just ignore it and keep on sleeping. Doesn't help that I have zero motivation! I decided that find a way to force myself to get out of bed in the morning! My idea- when my alarm (cell phone) is on my night stand and my alarm goes off all I have to do is roll over and snooze it so I moved it as far away from me as possible forcing me to get up and deal with it! Maybe it's that I didn't sleep at night the night before (thanks a lot depression!) but day 1 was a success! In fact I was the first person up in the house! We'll see how it goes from here! Wish me luck!
The good thing is, I'm finally in a place where I can acknowledge the depression and see the sleeping as a problem. If anyone else is like me, it doesn't matter how much your alarm goes off in the morning, or even if people text you, you just ignore it and keep on sleeping. Doesn't help that I have zero motivation! I decided that find a way to force myself to get out of bed in the morning! My idea- when my alarm (cell phone) is on my night stand and my alarm goes off all I have to do is roll over and snooze it so I moved it as far away from me as possible forcing me to get up and deal with it! Maybe it's that I didn't sleep at night the night before (thanks a lot depression!) but day 1 was a success! In fact I was the first person up in the house! We'll see how it goes from here! Wish me luck!
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)