2/24/2014

I haven’t really gotten to this part yet in my journaling, so I might be bouncing around a bit. After I got married and started remembering what Jack had done, we soon moved out of state. Not long after moving I decided to go back to counseling. Going from seeing Joy and SOLE to seeing Aaron was horrible. I am grateful I didn’t start counseling with Aaron. I probably never would have gone back or actually dealt with anything! I remember one evening very vividly. I had seen Aaron earlier that day or maybe it was the day before. It was not a good visit with Aaron. We either had a decent (maybe even good) visits or horrible visits. I met with my Bishop that night to discuss how counseling was going. I remember talking in his office. We talked about depression and he asked if I wanted to try a different counselor. I told him no. I had lost faith in counseling. I didn’t want to try again. I would simply move on with my life. Bishop R opened up about his own struggle with depression. I remember that night talking to him, leaving his office thinking, why can’t he be my counselor because he is that good! FYI, that’s not even his profession! I did end up trying counseling again after we had moved out of that ward, I saw James and once again loved counseling! I went another group, the leader of that group was a counselor named Ross. All caught up? okay.... Fast Forward to 8 months ago... We had an Enrichment activity about finding balance in your life. We had 4 different speakers covering emotional health, physical health, personal message and yoga. As it turns out that speaker we got to discuss the emotional health was Ross! Towards the end of Ross’s discussion he mentioned that there was a depression support group in our town. I through, Man I really need to go to that! All I had to do was find out when and where it was. Seems simple right? I put it off and the more I put it off the less I left like find out. Which brings me to now... We were having another Enrichment activity they are usually just for the woman 18 and up, but this time they decided to invite everyone 12 and up. I am on the committee that plans and carries out the activities, so I knew what was going on from months ago. At one of our planning meetings the leader mentioned a couple that did firesides about depression. I knew right away who it was (she couldn’t remember their names), Bishop R! And of course, it was! Sometime throughout the planning stages the leader mentioned, they (Bishop R and his wife) have a depression support group. I wondered if it was the same one Ross talked about. Last night was the fireside about depression that Bishop R and his wife did. To keep this short, it was AMAZING. Their support group is the same one Ross talked about. Is it weird to say that I am now really excited to go!?!? I cannot wait! To add to my excitement, I was looking through the book their use and the first thing I thought, “This is like SOLE, but for depression!!!!”. So you might be seeing a lot more post from me about how my new depression support group is going! Oh, another side note I just thought of... After I quit seeing Aaron, Bishop R printed off some church articles about healing from abuse for me. It amazed me that even though I had given up on counseling, he was still trying to be there and support me in healing! Our last week in that ward before we moved Bishop R taught that Relief Society lesion and I have always referred to that lesion he taught was a one hour version of SOLE!